vezza is a loner

Verbosity vibrates, pulses the blood and sharpens the nerves.

My stomach contracts.

My temple throbs.

My fingers itch.

Surrounded by warm whirring, turning, still and silent.

My knuckles expand.

My skin recedes.

My wall is long.

There seems to be a theme developing for us ambitious Aries, look at this:

If you’ve been feeling a little ambitious lately, just realize that getting yourself noticed at work should earn you some real rewards in the days ahead. And some unexpected opportunities will soon be headed your way.

Sounds amazing, I’ll take it! I think I should get an early night in order to be more on top of my game tomorrow. Today was lost in meetings, hardly got anything done.

If you’re out in the social whirl tonight, a romantic opportunity with a friend could end up surprising you.

I’m not out in the social whirl tonight, so, uh, this isn’t going to happen. What a pity.

If you’ve been giving any thought to finding a better place to live, just try to let your intuition help point you in the right direction.

ON IT! I’m way ahead of you, stars. I can’t stop thinking about my soon-to-be abode.

At the very least, you should really try to spruce things up around the house right now. Mantra: Waste not, want not.

This must be referring to yesterday- again, I’m way ahead of the stars. Yesterday I de-scaled the shower, and made chicken stock. Check and check. Wahoo!

Its not often these days that I read my horoscope with immediate access to tumblr, so its a long time since I posted one. Its usually a Sunday thing, when I’m at home and my parents have bought a paper with hours of supplements to flip through in the kitchen. By the time I’ve reached the horoscopes, its late afternoon, the grand prix is over, and nobody minds if I offer to read theirs aloud. My dad’s usually the one who listens, and who takes interest in mine, too. If he’s not around, and his is really positive, I’ll circle it for him and leave it on the counter before I catch my train back to Brighton.

This one caught my eye just now. Here it is, with my nonsense comments as usual.

If you’ve been feeling a little ambitious lately, just realize that quite a few people will be eager to back you up when the time comes. You’ll be able to count on a lot of help and support from many of your friends, but a few of them will turn out to be a little hard to find when you need them.

I have been feeling ambitious lately. More than a little. In the last five days I’ve been feeling really on top of things, as if everything’s falling into place. I don’t like the sound of friends being hard to find. But there are one or two I need to call, I know that much. Well, one, really. And yes, I paused in this entry to send her a text!

You’ll really be able to enjoy some good times in the social whirl today. With all that’s going on around you though, don’t forget to take some time to recharge your batteries. Just remember that you’ll definitely end up feeling a lot better if you can take a little time out to relax around the house a bit.

The social whirl…. the social whirl…. hmm… I spoke to my cousin this morning while taking the bus to work? She opened a parcel that had arrived for me and told me down the phone what was in it. We were both pretty excited, it was complimentary hair products to say “sorry our mousse made your hair fall out” from John Frieda. That must be what this is in reference to. Or maybe it was when I “liked” someone’s Facebook post about the Princess Bride? Either way, I think the stars are giving me their blessing to watch a fourth episode of Desperate Housewives.

And on that note, I shall plunge myself back into virtual silence for another evening. Don’t worry, I only have 4 episodes left of Season 6, then I’ll have to return to the land of the living and breathing because a. Season 7’s not out yet and b. I’m not really even enjoying Season 6 that much but I just can’t tear myself away for some reason.

I have a Renoir DVD on my shelf still in its cellophane.

What have I become?

-splash-

Decline and Fall, Evelyn Waugh.

Nana, Emile Zola

Anna Karenina, Leo Tolstoy

Books on my shelf that I’d like to read properly once and for all before the films come out

Anna Karenina, Leo Tolstoy

The Great Gatsby, F Scott Fitzgerald

On The Road, Jack Kerouac

Books I’d love to re-read before the film comes out

Jane Eyre, Charlotte Bronte

Books I wish I’d never read but will be happy to see the film, I guess

The Devils Double, Latif Yahia

One Day, David Nicholls

Books I’ve read recently which were unexpectedly dramatised on the bbc, giving rise to a mild interest in the 2 sequels

Case Histories, Kate Atkinson

And this is someone who is averse to critical discussions of “adaptation”.

I think when it really comes down to it, I mean if I really had ta had ta choose, I’d say I was more a book person than a film person. I wish I read more. There, I said it.

Now, where’s my rabbit-nibbled Nana? Gotta love Zola but I can’t say I’m not intruiged to see the Martine Carol film!

Escape The Anchor (demo) - LUXE

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My best writing is the stuff I think about least. Brain to keyboard, that’s the way it seems to work. If you know me, then you can probably imagine me saying these sentences, rather than sitting down choosing my words carefully and wondering whether I’ve used enough adjectives. (I don’t usually use many adjectives. I find them redundant.) (that was my kind of word joke, by the way).

(it wasn’t funny, its ok)

Anyway. I’ve done my finances for the last two weeks and I’ve thought about the big meeting I have this week. I think its time I made my measly dinner (a sandwich, some carrot sticks and a bit of hummous) and settled down with some Little Big Planet 2 before Exile is on at 9.

Speaking of which, here is my horoscope for today:

You won’t really be operating at full strength today, so try to take it easy and enjoy a little rest and relaxation if you can.

Yes, yes. Sounds great!

You’ll be eager to do what you want even if others don’t really approve. Just try not to be too stubborn or strong-willed though, or you could end up stirring up a little unnecessary trouble for yourself.

The advantages of basically living alone! ha ha haaa PS3 here I come!!

Things should really be looking up for you on the financial front. So don’t be surprised if some sort of opportunity to improve your financial situation ends up crossing your path.

I’m loving this. I wish horoscopes were real!!

Just remember to pay attention and be ready to jump in when opportunity strikes. Mantra: Thriftiness.

Nifty Thrifty Old Blind Fifty! You bet I’ll be thrifty. I’ve got my loaf of bread. I’ve got my carrots. I’m ready for a week of poor meals, hard work and no snacks.

Let’s go!

V

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You’ll be eager to shake up some old routines in order to create a greater sense of freedom and independence for yourself. And you ought to be ready to make a few fresh starts in a variety of different areas…

Old routines, old routines… I think this must have something to do with pay day (this week) and my boss paying my expenses (£400) — what I mean is I need to break old routines by buying new clothes. This, in itself, is an old routine. Around this time every year I feel the need to rejuvenate my wardrobe. Sick of winter, bored of my leather boots (never thought I’d see the day but 18 months later here we are!), and aching for a lighter jacket than my parka.

Maybe this means a bit more than buying new clothes. Maybe it means changing the way I relate to myself, the way I get things done. I tell you what, I am up for that! Because the way I relate to myself, well, is “urgh I’m tired, another 10 minutes snooze won’t hurt” (literally and metaphorically), and the way I get things done is, unless its something on which the rabbit’s wellbeing relies, I don’t get things done.

 …including the way that you relate to many of the key people in your life.

Er… myself? Maybe this means family. Yes, ok, we’ll go with family. I won’t go into the details but this could be a really positive step.

You’re bound to be feeling a little restless and adventurous, and you really ought to be ready for new experiences of any kind today.

Well, today is over and I’m exhausted, but restless, check, adventurous… not really check. This must be referring to the sewing machine still sat on the carpet in my new room. I don’t have a table, but when I GET a table, and a little chair, then yes I will go on adventures of the stay-indoors-and-sew variety. Watch this space. This may soon turn into a crafts blog or sprout a crafty sister blog.

Many things could be starting to change for you at this time. You should be coming on a lot stronger than usual at the moment, and you’ll be eager to find some new ways of expressing your own unique personality today. Mantra: Opportunity.

Bring it on. I’m ready. Well, I will be once I’ve saved up to get my hair done- its a seriously embarrassing MESS. And buy new glasses. And the aforementioned wardrobe spruce.

Jeez. It seems that three months of full time work and paying rent has really beaten me down into a pulp. I’ll write again soon with something a bit more spirited!!

I’m at work and this screen is huge. anyone could walk in and see what i’m doing. However i know I owe you a post, Tumblr. If five people ‘like’ this post I promise I’ll post a real entry tonight about the exciting progress in my post-graduate life….

-V

But I’m too bashful to post the whole thing so here’s a snippet from the beginning. 

“Ever notice how those moments in your own company are the most visceral? You’re walking home alone, having broken off from friends on the way back from the pub, and you look upwards at the trees gaping in the 3am currents, the drizzle pattering on your warm, inebriated face, and you look up and close your eyes and think “this is it, this is living”? When you find yourself crossing a deserted road, standing on the lines, looking from side to side, down towards the dips in the horizon. You tell yourself “nothing can get me, nobody knows I’m here right now”. You feel invincible, as though somehow connected with forces you know you cannot understand. You walk slowly home to your flat, listening to the sounds of your boots connecting with the pavement: your body knows how to take you home, your boots provide the satisfying clicks which assure you of your progress. Your strides widen, and you stick out your chin, knowing that this moment is yours alone. Breathing deeply through the nose, you ponder your place, your future. It passes you by in a flicker, you feel some kind of satisfaction, certain success, but it passes with the night breeze.”

If you can’t tell, I was pissed. And still at university at the time. But it was nice to play around with words. What do you think: chase dream career path as writer or stick to blogging and copywriting?

(more on that subject later. This is, after all, meant to be a blog about my quest for employment and happiness as a graduate.)

- V